Time surely goes by and when it does, I feel quite overwhelmed of my day to day life. So many things happened since the last time I posted anything … some indescribable, some sad moments, and some meaningful. But I guess in the end, all those events that occurred are the events that make up my life and defines my existence in this world.
It is now 2011, this coming October I would be twenty-two years old. Yet given this fact, for the longest period in time since the new year I have felt myself to be lacking in many areas:
- Have not yet attained any requirements or walked towards my goal of being a Pharmacist
- Have not yet perceived my path of life
- Have not yet revived my grade point average to what I desire
- Have not yet expressed my feelings that I have held on for so long
- Have not yet been in any relationship with anyone
- Have not yet officially learned to cook
However, up until now the year seems to have been quite friendly with me and yet not so friendly, but the not so friendly part are the results of my decisions and actions so I can’t really much blame the year.
I have partially found my “path of life” or what I intend to do with my life, I want to become a Pharmacist or a Financial Aid Counselor. I don’t really know how to get there, but as the Secret states “you don’t need to worry about the how, just decide what you want in life, picture it, and you will attain what you desire.” As someone who is “experimenting” with the Secret, I have found myself to be quite a believer. My second career choice of being a Financial Aid Counselor was recently opened up to me; I was given one of the highest opportunity to held toward this path thanks to one of my newest supervisor and to the Secret. The only thing holding me back is of course my Business Accountancy degree and my other desire of being a Pharmacist. As for my first career choice, I have general ideas of what I need to achieve and where I want to attend, but unfortunately I don’t know if I am going anywhere on this path.
I have been feeling overwhelmed with school lately. The semester started out smoothly but unexpected things occurred unexpectedly, but of course events in life are expected to be unexpected majority of the time. Yet what occurred threw me off track. Out of no where I received a notification from Enrollment Service that I have now received 100% of my major requirements to graduate for Biology, therefore I should file to graduate as soon as possible. I was so freaked out, I was no where done with my biology major AND my business accountancy major; I had at least one semester of biology left and at least one to two years of business accountancy left. I was so afraid that I was going to get kicked out and ended up wasting four years of my life to leave without a degree…other than a Minor in Chemistry. Through the panic, I found out the reason why I received the notification despite not near completion; if taking into the consideration of all the business accounting classes I took, it made Enrollment Service thought that I have attained enough units to graduate with my biology degree. Thanks to working in the Office of Financial Aid, I have grown to know kinda and caring people around me, that was willing to help me. As a result, I don’t have to worry much about this issue since it has been resolved.
Yet, so far this year I have caused myself to have one sentimental feeling of disappointment…I was given the opportunity to spend time with someone who I had wish I had a chance to do so, but I let the chance left me. If only I took the chance and took a couple of steps, I think I would have enjoyed my time that day without returning home with my family …feeling empty and indecisive. I … don’t want to feel this way anymore…I won’t let the opportunity to spend the time together fly away from me. As the Secret states, “if given the opportunity, take it and do not hesitate.”
Many other things occurred…yet I don’t really don’t have much words to describe it…but I do know that instead of saying “have not,” it would now become “I want and will.”
May Grandmother Vy rest in peace. May her body and soul be at ease. May she reunite with her loving husband that she had been separated for so long. May she be forever remembered and loved. Thank you for your kind soul. We shall forever miss you.
May Japan remain strong. May the world unite for a better cause. May Gackt, Yusuke, Yampi, and Shota be safe and sound.
May God bless us all.